Hello, Again!

Wow! It’s been WAY TOO LONG and far too much has happened since we had Baby #2, Jack. I posted his announcement on January 11, 2020…today, is May 14, 2020.

MAY!

We are half way through the month and almost half way through the YEAR! Jack is almost 4.5 months old and Michael is almost 20 months, everyone is in some type of quarantine… I don’t even know where to start, I only know that I’ve missed writing/talking to you all.

So, here we go! I make no promises on posting frequency, but am hoping to show up once a week. We will see what happens…

If you want to interact more frequently than that, you can head over to Instagram. If you have emailed me in the last…let’s say 6 months, I’m going through them and will be getting back to you soon!

On that note, Jack is crying and my brief time alone has ended!

Until next time,

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Quick Update | Baby Has Arrived

Baby Boy #2 is here! After 34 hours of labor and delivery (and some complications)…we had an 8 pound 2 oz little boy! Today is the first full day that we are all HOME! Two adults, two boys, two dogs!

John “Jack” Emerson Devens arrived on January 6 at 13:43.

Stay tuned for some ADORABLE (if I do say so myself) baby photos!

I’m hoping that some time soon I can get writing. Until that time, I will be basking in that newborn smell, noises, and overall baby bliss! I’ll also be enjoying and helping the newest big brother transition!

Check out Instagram for some baby photos, if you just can’t wait until the next post!

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Hello, Again! | Our Last Post to Today

Oh man, you guys! I’m writing this post in present time (10:04AM) with only 30 minutes until nap time is over and an hour before M3’s music class starts. Yikes! I have been severely M.I.A…the last post I published was in July! It is currently September!

First

I wanted to quickly hop on here to tell you that we are alive and well, hoping to come back with a bang at the end of this month, and we’re waist deep in planning for Baby Number 2!

If you weren’t aware that we are pregnant, click here for Our Announcement or here for the First Trimester Update!

Second

We have done a LOT of traveling this summer! From July to September, we have had 3 weddings, 1 extended stay with family in New York, and a mommy-and-me only week long stay at home. We have been BUSY!

I have so many things to talk about when flying with a mobile infant in the weeks to come. Especially, when it comes to solo-flying with said child! Let’s just say, that while it wasn’t horrible, I wouldn’t volunteer to do THAT again!

Third

With being pregnant, my nesting/organizational tendencies are out in full force! This is just my mental list of things that I want to discuss/complete before Baby Number 2 arrives in January…

  • Freezer meals
  • Nursery purchase
  • Nursery organization/decoration
  • General home organization/holiday prep
  • Deciding on a baby name
  • Mommy must haves

I KNOW I just threw a lot at you guys, but I’ve missed writing/talking to everyone. Consider this my last minute, “I need to write/talk before I go crazy” post!

In the comments below, leave what you’d like to see in the upcoming months on this blog! While I am planning out what to write and when to publish, you can find me over on Instagram!

Thanks for sticking around!

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Let’s Talk…

Postpartum…can I hide until this time is over?

This time is almost as hard and complicated as pregnancy. WHY doesn’t anyone discuss this?!

Why is pregnancy, labor and delivery, and the postpartum time such a taboo subject? Why are we as women so ill informed?!

Anyway, I’m tired of dealing with all of these things in the dark…or at least dealing with that feeling.

Weight Gain

Whoever told me that weight loss would be effortless, simply put, you lied.

My weight journey before this pregnancy was a little rocky. I have IBS and have had a hard time maintaining any number. Then the miscarriages, hormone therapy, and so on happened. Keeping the weight off became something to deal with and was HARD!

Now, here we are. Almost 5 months postpartum and I’ve lost about 25 pounds. That’s good, yes…and yet…

Those 25 pounds I lost within the first 2 weeks. Then I lost a little more. Then I had to stop breastfeeding and BOOM! Hello, weight gain!

My face got a bit fuller again, my boobs continued to grow (I’m not kidding, they are HUGE!), and I still look 5 months pregnant.

Now, here I sit, the heaviest I’ve ever been, trying my hardest to lose the weight and already feeling defeated.

Now, I know I’m not alone with this, and yet here I am telling you that I feel very alone.

Exercise

This was the area that I KNEW would be easy for me. I KNEW I’d workout and get that workout high once I was cleared at the 6 week mark.

I knew. I knew. I knew.

I knew it would be slow going, but I was so looking forward to it. The 6 week mark hit, I was cleared, and started slow. I went back to the doctor less than a week and a half later because something didn’t feel right and was sent to physical therapy.

It was there that I learned exercise would not be happening anytime soon. I was diagnosed with severe pelvic floor dysfunction, a uterine prolapse, and severe diastastis recti.

So no exercise, lifting, blah, blah, blah. That makes losing weight incredibly hard. Those goals I set for myself have been tossed aside (read: tossed in the trash) for who knows how long.

I’ll continue with physical therapy until mid spring. At that point they will re-evaluate my progress and decide if surgery would be beneficial.

Guess what, though? You can’t do any of the surgeries until you are completely done having kids.

I know this next bit is dramatic, but I don’t care.

It’s like the universe and Mr. Baby are conspiring to insure that he is our only child. “Here, have a difficult conception journey. Have a high risk and difficult pregnancy and labor and delivery. Now enjoy your baby, but know that this postpartum time isn’t going to be any easier. In fact, in some ways it’ll be much harder.”

Breastfeeding

I can’t tell you how many times I was told breastfeeding was great.

I’d love it.

It’d be so natural.

It’d get easier.

It’d be better for me and baby.

It’d be cheaper.

Guess what…yeah, that wasn’t the case for me.

It’ll be great? It was miserable. Mr. Baby was in the NICU and dropped too much weight too quickly in his first 2 weeks, so we had to triple feed. That means he’d breastfeed, I’d then offer him pumped milk, and then we’d top him off with either donated milk or formula. Then we had to work with allergies, sensitivities, and GERD. Oh, Jesus!

I’d love it? I hated it. It’s painful, like REALLY painful. It’s time consuming (he’d eat for an hour, sleep for 45 minutes, and then wake again, starved). We also learned (at his FOUR MONTH appointment) that he had a tongue tie, too, that we needed to deal with. This tie, that doctors brushed off as first time mom worry, prevented proper latching to ANYTHING. Boobs. Bottles. Binkies. All the B words!

It’s natural? Not for me. It was so painful, so hard, and so overwhelming. I had SO much anxiety around this that I never wanted to leave the house with him.

It’d get easier? Not for us. As time went on, it got harder. That is all.

It’d be better for me and the baby? Sure, maybe. Until you factor in that I was sleeping in 30 minute increments, if that. Trying to feed a baby that couldn’t and/or didn’t want to feed. Was so anxious I could barely sleep or go out. I could go on, but I’ll spare both you and me!

Lastly, and the one that makes me laugh the hardest…It’ll be cheaper? Sure if everything worked out perfectly, it would be.

In my case, though, I bought every nipple shield and balm out there, breast pump aid, nursing aid, lactation food, specialty foods for issue ridden babies of breastfeeding mamas.

Hell, I’d have bought a purple 2 headed dog that could fly, if someone told me it’d work.


All that said, I will gladly do this again and again to get the baby we have and the siblings we want to give him.

This is hard. The whole thing. That’s ok and it’s ok (or even better in my opinion) to talk about it to those you are comfortable talking to.

Want more postpartum discussion? Every post related to postpartum is here!

Coming Back! | Our New Schedule

I am coming back with live, up to date content on November 14, 2018! Set your alarms!

This is the last preplanned, prewritten blog post since Baby Boy has been born! The last 7 weeks of blog posts were all prewritten content–hello, preparation. This allowed me to focus on baby, while still allowing me to connect and build a relationship with all of you!

My plan is to still publish a post every Wednesday around 10:30AM and slowly start to see if I can up my writing by a post or two. For the most current information about posts, and life in general, you can follow me on Instagram.

I can’t wait to establish The Colorful Notebook’s new routine and connect in real time with you all again! Just bear with me as I’m still trying to figure out how this new-mom life and blogging fit together!

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Quick Update | Baby is Here

He is here! After 44 hours of labor, 3 hours of pushing, and some complications…we had a 7 pound 10 oz little boy! AND we are all HOME!

To top it all off, Michael William has a very special birthday–September 21, 2018 (I’ll explain later!).

Stay tuned for some ADORABLE (if I do say so myself) baby photos!

This Wednesday (tomorrow), will be a non-baby post about fall essentials! In the weeks following, there will be a post every Wednesday ranging a variety of topics!

In the meantime, I will be basking in that newborn smell, noises, and overall baby bliss!

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Let me know in the comments below, if you’d like to see some of our day(s) on Instagram (@thecolorfulnotebooks)!